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Hey, what's up? My name is Allan Brookins I am 33 yrs old. Those I consider family and the very I consider friends call Quay or Quayshawn. Which is my middle name and what I respectfully prefer to be called. I’m originally from Jersey. I'm the father of a 15 yrs old mature, handsome, intelligent young man. I've currently been away for quite some time.

So it's been a few yrs since I've felt a warm gentle meaningful embraced. And it's also been a minute since one's been able to emotionally surrender oneself to somebody that generally cares. In today's society it's extremely difficult finding that special person which one has a profound connection with. It's even more difficult trying to generate that connection from within a concrete structure such as this.

Honestly, speaking this is my first time I have ever taken part in something of this magnitude. So I'm uncertain of what I might find. All I know is whatever it is that this fragile heart of mines is eager to find. I have yet to find it. I guess what I hope to find is a strong woman, a friend, someone who is patient, understanding, caring and kind. A woman who is unafraid of my past and the physical barrier that separates us. It doesn't matter to me what her nationality is, religion, creed or if she believes to be my type or not. As long as she has a good personality. I believe there is more to a woman than what's on the surface of her beautiful exterior.

Therefore I tend to value the vertex of her mind. Like her perceptive objective view of the world, how she cares for her family, her goals in life. Because physical features fade over time, a good personality and a caring, understanding heart remains immortal. With closed eyes I can see we have a chance to discover and explore a friendship that's tangible and untamed by time. But if this friendship is a seed and has a potential to grow into something much more than with trust, honesty, passion, understanding and mutual respect. There's a chance we could soar beyond the Stars.

So please if you're having any doubts don't allow what you feel, or what you may have been told about men like me, frightened you. I ask that you fight against that feeling and uncertainty with all of your might. At this time I have very little to offer you. But all that I am. I want smiles to replace whatever sorrow’s you may have encountered in the past.
It will take strength to make any form of a relationship last. And it will be our strength that keeps us both standing in the eye of this storm. While others around us with fragile relationships fail.

As I begin to pour what is left of me into the frame of this mission. I will try to be as transparent with whom I declare oneself to be. If I were to use any word from the English dictionary to describe me. Then there would only be a few that would make sense. Which is that I am nothing more than an understandingly humble, simple, Blackman who stands firmly in his truth. Who doesn't consider himself the worst of them but not among the best either. Because like all men I have my own Vice’s. Which might frighten the bravest of men. I was raised to never allow my past to defined me. I'm a loving and caring father, friend, brother and son.

I've been known to wear my heart on my sleeve. Which is why I am selective with who I trust and give my energy too. My heart has been broken so I'm a bit guarded. Afraid to be blind and vulnerable. There's no fear in a shallow heart because shallow hearts don't fall apart. A heart that truly cares is fragile to the flow of air. Metaphorically speaking. I would burn down a House with me in it if it meant proving to those I care for that I love them. This is my most greatest flaw. Despite all of that Family & Loyalty are what I value most in life. Well, here are some of a few things I enjoy exercising, reading things such as political sciences, psychologies, philosophy. My favorite philosopher is Marcus Aurelius, Finance: Trading & investing. I read just about anything I can get my hands on. I prefer to be informed and because certain books are prohibited. I like animals: Dogs of course but mainly animals in general. I prefer them over people most of the time.

Before my arrest I drove Commercial Trucks cross country and Sold heroin. I am somewhat ashamed of myself because I didn't need to sell drugs I chose to… Because I was making good money. The harsh reality was that Greed motivated my every action because I desired more. There's really know words of my level of incompetence. I can't change the past, I rather move forward. Because dwelling on it won't change my current situation. Once this chapter of my life becomes a faint memory. I'll return to enjoying the substance of life riding dirt bikes, traveling Etc and working driving trucks. And maybe later on open my own trucking company/towing company Etc.

I hope as we come to this unfortunate end I was able to provide you with some sort of transparency into who I am and who I'm striving to be. Also, if there's any questions or concerns you would like to ask. I promise I will try to answer them with as much maturity, respect and clarity as possible.

Before I go I would like to say thank you to whomever has taken the time out of their day to notice me. I am immensely grateful and will forever be indebted to you. Therefore my heart is forever yours…..

If you decide to write through a letter or JPay I promise to respond as quickly as my mind & heart would allow me to..

With all my heart, Quay